im really not doing very well without a job. im depressed.. but at least its not the destructive depression. its the sit around and sleep and be exhausted and be boring type. i went to bed at 5am today. woke up around 2pm. watched movies/random TV for a few hours and then passed out in the chair for another few hours. im about to go to bed soon too. the other thing is.. where is everyone? nobody is writing.. even im not really writing as many meaningful entries. i miss my nitch of online community. i miss waiting for 'that diary site' to get on.. so i could have a safe space to write and begin to build a community again. but then, i wonder if that dream died for a reason - maybe we'll never get that feeling of community and support back again. maybe all of that really is all in the past. maybe im holding on to a ghost.